the day it all ends
Written @ Saturday, 6 February 2010 1:22 PM
another 7 hours... dat's how much i got b4 we'll head off to KLIA. my official mood currently is like this.
im feeling restless, there's something heavy in the pit of my stomach, even my heart feels heavy. i dont want to go back to Russia. only here with my family i am Me. free to be myself. ive always felt im only half Me when im in Nizhny. because i dont really show the real me. have to jaga other's 'delicate sensibilities', so mine is abandoned. i, myself know that im not exactly a tactful person. sometimes, i just say things dat people dont like, so i always think it's better to keep people in a distance.
only in msia, when im in the presence of my family and friends i can be myself again. that's y sometimes it's tiring to b at nizhny. i have no one to tell my worries to, or things dat made me happy.
ma, pa, kaklin n boy.... i love u all with all my heart. the best family ever even with our abundant flaws! sarangae..
hopefully we can arrived to Nizhny safely and without any flight delay. amin...
Labels: days of mine~, what i feel
d day where evrything begun
Written @ Thursday, 28 January 2010 2:10 PM
HEPY BURFDAY TO ME & MY BELOVED SIS, KAKLIN!!Labels: days of mine~, festive
gigi
Written @ Wednesday, 27 January 2010 3:33 PM
i've been to the dental clinic for 2 consequtive days now. yesterday, went to have a basic check up n scaling. it seems sev of my teeth is in need of dental care. kena tampal. so today once again pegi klinik utk tampal gg. my god, horrornya. hurm, maybe it's bcoz it's been a long time since my last check up, so it feels scay to hear the drilling sound. urgh.. :(
Labels: ntah apape~, what i feel
meeting an old, precious friend~
Written @ 2:47 PM
salam,
rite now im lepaking in a restaurant in jj. Manhattan Fish Market, where my sis n bro r working membanting tulang. haha.. due to some unexplainable occurences, im forced to melepak sowewhere else since wifi at my hse cant be used for a while. wuwuwu..
but every cloud has its silver lining. even sitting in a crowded place seems like heaven when it's just me, my lappie n fb. haha.. im addicted to fb now, i have to admit. like my sis said, 'dia tu tgh excited baru kenal fb.' nge3.. lebih kurang la tu.
anyway, i met an old friend of mine yesterday, Putri. she's been a friend since im in my primary school. so, when she contacted me via fb i was ecstatic. so, finally yesterday, we met at A&W, n then she drove me around to her house, Parkson, etc with her proton Waja.
it made me happy to see how she's still happy-go-lucky n cheerful just like she used too. n of course, as cute as ever!. huhu..
Labels: days of mine~, kesukaanku~, what i feel
pondering
Written @ Tuesday, 19 January 2010 3:08 AM
salam,
nothing much really. just suddenly realising it's already the mid of January. wish i got more time in Malaysia. best sgt being back in Msia. i got to see people of my own color (not being racists, just missing seeing Malaysians, be them Malay, Chinese or Indian), eat our own food n be able to feel comfortable in my own skin.
byk benda buat kat Msia. dapat jumpa Wewe, going to Mines with my bro, bought tons of new, necessary things - hp, books, stethoscope, sphymomanometer,etc, etc - n most importantly, i get to joke around with the people whom to me is the most important n most cherished in my life - my family.
but of course, a part of me is already thinking about the day when d 2nd semester starts. debaran n d anticipation to start studying new things, absorb new knowledge. call me a geek or wuteva, i dont care.that's just me. i enjoy learning new things especially those related to medicine. everyone is their own individual. some may like music, others literature, but for me, medicine is in my soul. i've always felt thankful bcoz i've always known what path to take, what i'm going to be when i grow up. i guess life comes quite easy to me. n i pray to God, this fire, this passion i had for medicine wont fade with time.
p/s: for Baby, d 1 n only hamster of our home, may u rest in peace. i guess it's ur time to go, as sudden as it is.
Labels: what i feel
ALIN
♥ That's what my friends call me.
♥ I'm just someone trying to find the right way, the right path on this planet earth.
♥ I love my family, siblings, friends and my DBSK oppas. So, beware~
♥ Now, I'm a 3rd year medic student. Another 3 years more to go before embarking on the scary journey as a doctor.
♥ Ganbarimasu!!
Hello creatures! Welcome to my kingdom! 
the day it all ends
im feeling restless, there's something heavy in the pit of my stomach, even my heart feels heavy. i dont want to go back to Russia. only here with my family i am Me. free to be myself. ive always felt im only half Me when im in Nizhny. because i dont really show the real me. have to jaga other's 'delicate sensibilities', so mine is abandoned. i, myself know that im not exactly a tactful person. sometimes, i just say things dat people dont like, so i always think it's better to keep people in a distance.
